An R5 for 01/11/05 !!!

So, the almighty Rumour Queen has put out an R5 (rumour rating 5) that referrals are on their way and that the cutoff is Nov. 1st, 2005. Finally, November makes the cut! This last batch, if true, will have covered 6 days worth of LIDs. The CCAA will need to do 9 days worth next time in order for us to 'make the cut'. Is it possible????
Possible ... yes! Is it probable? ... possibly! Explain THAT in a probability course! I hate to set myself up to think it is possible ... I'd rather feel confident about the possibility of a July referral and be ecstatic over any thing sooner. Looking back though provides SOME hope:

Past referrals
Aug. 1 .......... up to July 13, 2005
Aug. 28 ........ up to Jully 22, 2005 (9 days)
Sept. 25 ....... up to Aug. 9, 2005 (17 days)
Nov. 2 ............up to Aug. 25, 2005 (16 days)
Nov. 30.......... up to Sept. 8, 2005 (13 days)
Jan. 3 ............. up to Sept. 27, 2005 (18 days)
Feb. 1 ............ up to Oct. 13, 2005 (16 days)
Mar. 5 ............ up to Oct. 24, 2005 (11 days)
Apr. 9 ............ up to Oct. 26, 2005 (2 days)
May. 1 ........... up to Nov. 1, 2005 (6 days)

What do I think is LIKELY to happen .... next cut off ... Nov. 9th! This will mean missing it by ONE day and travelling in September ... poor Sean!
Oh well, guess we'll know in about 4 or 5 weeks .... send positive thoughts our way!!!!

Kisses in the Wind

Thought I'd share another poem with you ... one that really seems to catch the essence of this long wait and what it means for our daugher (son?) to be ...

Kisses In the Wind

We hold you in our heart & touch you in our dreams.
You are here each day with us, at least that's how it seems.
We know you wonder where we are...and what's taking us so long.
But remember child we love you so and God will keep you strong.
Now go out side and feel the breeze and let it touch your skin...
Because tonight, just as always, we'll be blowing you kisses in the
wind.
May God hold you in his hand until we can be with you.
We promise you darling we are doing all that we can do.
Very soon you'll have a family for real, not just pretend.
But for tonight, just as always we blow you kisses in the wind.
May God wrap you in His arms and hold you tight,
and let the angels bring the kisses that we send to you each night.

Author Unknown

This Makes Me Sad .....

It came to my attention today that Urban Outfitters is selling this graphic t-shirt on their website and at their stores. I cannot begin to tell you how disgusted I am! If you have a choice .... I would ask you to support the adoption community and not shop at a place that would trivialize the process of building a family. There really is nothing more to say .............

I am completely .....

OVERWHELMED!!! I truly am unsure as to how I am going to get through until school's out. Just thinking of all that needs to get done over the next 8 weeks is sitting, turning over in the pit of my stomach. I am sorry to say this, but I kinda hope the weather sucks every weekend for the next 8 in a row ... or at least until I feel I can handle the pace.
The night school thing is going okay! Last week was nerve racking, but now that I have a bit of a handle on the curriculum I need to impart, AND weekends in which to plan it ... I am feeling better. However, this is eating up ALL of my time right now.
I spend 2 full days on the weekends getting lessons planned for that and 2 nights teaching it. Let's not forget I have a day job
that I have to plan for as well, and all of a sudden there are extra pressures there ... meetings, assessments ... now that the end of the year is in sight, some parents want ACTION ... immediately ... where were you in September? Throw a two night camping trip with grade 8s in the mix and a two night excursion with patrollers and you have a teacher who is falling behind. I am a planner ... I make lists ... I get things done ... well, I used to! Right now I have 'piles' of stuff ... everywhere ... and I HATE it!
I also have a home ... a place I like to keep tidy and organized. Please DO NOT visit right now ... my house is a disgrace and I don't want you to witness it! On top of all this, the pool construction is set to begin in a couple of weeks ... I need to get some things lined up ... find someone to dismantle the fence, someone to do the electrical stuff, someone to put finishing touches on the deck, someone to replace the fence posts and fence and then someone to repair the grass. Yes, I have a husband ... yes he is a good guy ... yes he is helpful ... yes he could probably handle some of this BUT I am a control freak .. I admit it! I want to make sure it's done my way and so ... I will do it ... someway, somehow!
As for China ... no real news ... no good news ... lots of talk of another 2 or 3 day batch ... maybe we'll get there by Christmas ... I don't know what to say about it anymore!
And how are YOU doing????

Ladybug Sighting ....

For those outside the China adoption community ... ladybugs are considered a good luck sign within the China adoption community. Today, I saw one ... AND ... it landed right on me! Could this be a good omen? A sign that some good news is coming our way soon? I would say ... NOT! The sucker bit me ... hard! Now what do y'all think THAT means?

More on 'The Bag'

Thought you might enjoy the response I got from the store carrying 'The Bag':

Hi Debbie - They are almost ready for shipping - should be here in a
week of so - I could call you as soon as they arrive. They are going to
be around $***.95 - maybe a little more or less - They are beautiful
bags & if you are looking for a practical, gorgeous, unique diaper bag
that only a few lucky Moms will be carrying around for the the next year
or so - give us a call to be one of the first people to see the bag. We
have a waiting list - so if you want to see the bag before it goes out
for the rest of the world to see - call us with your phone # and you
will be one of the first people we call - Call toll free 1-888-420-0222
or locally 416-762-5811 to be added to the list of people wanting the
bag. We didn't order that many in as the bag is a little more expensive
than the rest of the line and I was sure more retailers would be
ordering them in. So it is first come - first serve. All the best.
Susan

After rereading it, I couldn't help but snicker!
I am such a sucker for the "gorgeous, unique, only a few lucky Moms" language ... it grabbed me,
but didn't hook me! Although ... a very good cyber friend has offered to look into finding me a knock
off ... thank your Kristen ... I will send you the specs! This story may not be over yet folks!

It was the perfect diaper bag ...

I have been searching the net for months, looking for the most stylin', 'practical' diaper bag .... a first time mom in her F@!#@s needs one ... no? Well, here it is ... the piece de resistance ....



After catching my breath I emailed a store in 'the city' listed as a sales contact to find out if they had them in stock, what colours, and of course ... the cost. How does this story end? I'm on the search again!